My Heart Goes On

Posted on Sun Dec 24th, 2023 @ 4:39am by 1st Lieutenant Joshua Young [Taylor]

Mission: MISSION 0 - History Speaks
Location: Josh's Quarters
Timeline: After Roster Redo
602 words - 1.2 OF Standard Post Measure

Josh lay on his bed his cabin dark. It was almost Christmas, and he was in a very un-Christmas state of mind. Anna was gone, died on that ice cube of a planet. When she died a large part of him died. They were so much more than best friends. They were partners, they were lovers, they were marines. They were soulmates. They confided in each other, trusted each other implicitly. They liked and respected each other. Oh. they could have arguments but there was always respect for the other's view. Now, she was gone, and Josh felt he was just going through the motions. He did his job, did it well but it wasn't the same without Anna teasing him, needling him. Captain Richardson understood what he was going through and supported him. However, while the captain understood, he wasn't living it. The endless days that passed like the pouring of molasses on a cold day that slowly gave way to the dark nights. They were the worst. Sleep was of some comfort when it finally claimed him as Anna came and occupied his dreams and they were together for a brief time only to have the joy dissolve into nothingness when he woke up and the tortuous cycle began anew.

"Anna, I miss you baby. I miss your smile, your laugh. I miss how you could make me smile. How you teased and needled me. I miss our sparring matches, where I kicked your pretty butt. I miss how you stood true to your convictions. Didn't matter who you were talking to. You remained true to yourself with your spit in their eye attitude. The hell with everyone else. Hell, I even miss our arguments. They always led to fantastic sex." He laughed as he said it. He paused and hung his head, " I'm so lost Anna. I feel like a ship that has lost its rudder, aimless, getting ready to crash into the rocks. I do my job but there is no joy in it." He took a shuddering breath as he continued. " I'll always love you, Anna. You come to me in my dreams and only there do I have joy and contentment. Only there am I at peace. I found a song, I think, I hope you will like." He paused and addressed the computer. "Computer, play My Heart will Go On by Celine Dion." A moment the first notes of the song filled his cabin. He looked heavenward, "Love you Anna baby. We'll be together again I promise."


Every night in my dreams
I see you, I feel you
That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance
And spaces between us
You have come to show you go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more, you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go 'til we're gone
Love was when I loved you
One true time I'd hold to
In my life, we'll always go on
Near, far, wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on (why does the heart go on?)
Once more, you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on
You're here, there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart and
My heart will go on and on