We Have All The Time In The World

Posted on Sat Sep 14th, 2019 @ 3:49am by Lieutenant Commander Aurelia Taylor

Mission: Mission 3: Masquerade
Location: Lia's cabin
Timeline: Current
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Lia had moved some of her things into Gary's cabin, but had decided to retain her own cabin as well. This was a mixture of sentiment and practicality, she had worked hard on this place and she liked what she had plus not everything she owned would fit into Gary's place. Sitting on her Futon Lia wondered how life was going to change for her, she still had to face Phoenix about her problem and then no doubt Star Fleet itself once it went up the line. Things had moved strangely since the Prison, swift paced then slow drawn out actions. Lia found it hard to follow sometimes, and like an eye of a Hurricane there she sat in the middle of all this destruction unable to know what would happen next. Gary seemed full of confidence and hope that they could beat this situation, Lia herself wasn't so sure any more. She had lost more than just her will to say no while in Romulan custody, somewhere at sometime her confidence and direction had been taken away. Technically she was moving in the desired direction, in reality nobody was steering and she was loosing headway.

The councilors didn't know what to do with her, or even how to proceed. All the while Lia's confidence drained away and an emptiness replaced it, how do you tell your friends that you've become some sort of perverted weirdo? How do you carry on when your fellow crew members find out that they can control you with just the right words? And she was sure they would find out, Elysium wasn't the place to try and keep a secret. Who would be the first to discover her filthy little secret? And how would they react? Questions without answers, problems without solutions. To Lia they were walls to high to climb and impossible to go around, and nobody had the slightest idea how to help her or even how she felt. They all talked a good talk, but as yet nobody had made good on their big ideas.

Was she looking at this all wrong? Was there another way to handle this, without causing an embarrassing situation? If there was she hadn't found it yet, and the more she looked the harder it was becoming to keep this façade up. Running away wasn't the answer, she'd tried that and the three musketeer's had turned up. Being open about it wouldn't work, trouble was the only response she knew would come of that path. The holodeck had for now been the only place where she could go and release the demons that resided within her, not even Gary knew that there in the holodeck a Romulan Prison sat complete with all the horrors they contained. With the safety protocols off, Lia Holmes re-lived every indignity every physical assault every sexual abuse that she had undergone while in the real prison. A dermal regenerator and other medical supplies had been sourced and placed in a sealed container, when she had taken all she could take she would end the program and heal the signs of the abuse. But the willingness to let the program keep running was growing, more and more deviant actions were being inflicted upon her and she allowed them to happen.

Taking a deep breath she again looked around her cabin, here she felt safe. This Japanese looking living space offered her an alternative to the bedlam within her head, it's rigid simplicity and form calmed her need to injure herself. It almost held her in a trance like state, making her see the foolishness of her destructive actions. But life kept intruding, people kept wanting her to return to them. She hadn't even returned to herself, how could she return to anyone else? Somewhere within her mind a small voice called to her, it reminded her of her love of the Japanese culture of the wish to speak Japanese naturally. It called her back to the normality and modernity, she had lived before the prison before she lost herself. Could this place be the way out of this nightmare? Or maybe the Teahouse, could becoming a Geisha be a way of killing off the hell she now lived in? "Computer, play me a hopeful song from my playlist", Lia waited to see what would be played. When the song started it was a shock to her,

"Louis Armstrong - We Have All The Time In The World"

We have all the time in the world
Time enough for life to unfold
All the precious things love has in store
We have all the love in the world
If that's all we have, you will find
We need nothing more
Every step of the way will find us
With the cares of the world far behind us
We have all the time in the world
Just for love
Nothing more, nothing less
Only love
Every step of the way will find us
With the cares of the world far behind us
We have all the time in the world
Just for love
Nothing more, nothing less
Only love

Only Love

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