Cold

Posted on Fri Mar 17th, 2023 @ 2:51am by Commander Arrianna Salannis an Vantar

Personal Log.

I feel cold... And it's only getting colder. Work used to be a cold comfort to me, , and I'm always alone now. I'm getting used to being alone. It's better than having my heart broken all over again. Shattered and crushed. But now I find myself getting colder without her, and it just feels wrong. I need work, it keeps my mind off things. And I'm wondering what to do if I ever get off this frozen hole.

I've had to leave the past behind. And so I've left Josie. I love her beyond words and time. But the only way I will ever speak to her again, is if she's no longer afraid of me. For the time being, there's always work and survival. At least working on my career now will be less painful. I just don't feel anything anymore.

If this crew thought Carrington was an ice hearted bitch.. They haven't seen anything yet.

Winter has come for me. And if people hate me.... Whatever... They'll thank me when they learn love is just hormones and chemicals. It means precisely nothing in the grand scheme of the universe.

The only thing that matters right now is working this crew to exhaustion to get the Elysium running again, and I intend to do just that.

End Log.