Afterthoughts

Posted on Sat Jun 19th, 2021 @ 8:42pm by Lieutenant Commander Kara Starr {Kelea-Salik} & Captain Mattias Richardson [Reece]
Edited on on Sat Jun 19th, 2021 @ 10:16pm

Mission: MISSION 0 - History Speaks
Location: Kara’s apartment, San Francisco, Earth
Timeline: 2385
2044 words - 4.1 OF Standard Post Measure

{ON}

Sitting on the bed with the covers pulled around herself Kara smiled as she watched Mattias putting his clothes back on. “Thank you Matt, you’ve made this the best birthday ever!”

Sitting on the edge of the bed, Mattias was in just his pants, his mind on what had just happened. On one hand, it was the most wonderful experience he had ever had. On the other, he knew that it could never happen again. "Kara," he replied, his voice firm, but quiet. "As great as this was....it can never happen again. Not even by accident." Turning his gaze to her, he added. "Promise me, Sweetheart. This will be the only time we do this." The conflicted look on his face was clearly visible.

Kara nodded understanding the feeling, she could feel how conflicted he was. Now it was all over she was starting to feel it too. “I promise! I don’t want to change our relationship Matt. You’re my big brother, you have been since your parents adopted me.”

Nodding slowly he turned back, to see the beautiful sunny day outside her bedroom window. Taking in a deep breath, he sighed heavily. "While this certainly has changed things, Kara, I just hope this doesn't hurt us in the future. While we're certainly not blood related, I'm not sure how either partner we end up with would understand the...uniqueness...of our relationship." He wasn't chastising her, only speaking calmly, concerned for her future more than anything.

Kara nodded. “This is something no one should ever know! It’s something only you and I should know.” She leant forward and gave him one last loving kiss. “I will never forget this Matt, you made my first time truly magical as I knew you would.”

Returning the kiss, he smiled softly. "You're my other half, Little Girl. You always will be in my heart and soul. You have been since the first day I saw you."

“Always my protective big brother” Kara smiled. “I love you as my brother, nothing more that’s a promise. So.... did you bring me a birthday card?” She grinned.

Turning to face her, his right eyebrow cocked high, he replied, an astonished tone to his voice. "You still expect a card, after that?! I suppose you still want me to take you out for breakfast and then spend the rest of my forty-eight hour pass with you too, don't you?" He gave her a impish smile as he finished speaking. Standing up, he closed his pants the padded out, in his bare feet, back to the living room to get something.

Watching him go Kara slid out of bed and picked up her clothes, putting them on she sat back on the bed to wait for Matt to return.

He returned a few beats later, with his right hand behind his back. Moving to sit on the side of the bed, facing her, he said, "Well, after what just happened, I'm not sure how nice this gift is." He brought his hand back around and gave her a small envelope.

“What is it?” Kara looked at Mattias curiously before opening the envelope. Inside was a small isolinear chip. “So what’s on it?” She gazed at Mattias.

"That right there is a dedicated isolinear communications chip. Anytime you need to contact me, in an emergency only, you slip that chip into the system, and the comm signal will be sent directly to SFMC Comms. Through their dedicated communications computers, it will then be sent to wherever I am." He placed his left hand over her hand that was holding the chip. Giving her a level gaze, he stressed the point. "Now, this is only to be used in an emergency. Understand?"

Kara nodded, her eyes misting over. “I understand, thank you Matt! Ohh and yes, I do expect you to spend your 48 hour leave here helping me to settle in! I have a few boxes to go through and I need to check out the Academy campus too.”

Smiling warmly, Mattias held up his left arm so Kara could come closer. Once she moved in, he dropped the arm around behind her. "Wellllll...."He playfully hemmed and hawed. "I guess I can stay." He gave her a look. "So long as you behave yourself, Little Girl."

Kara nodded her head. “That’s a promise! Besides... I’m a little sore, but I guess that comes with losing your virginity.” She grinned and kissed him on the cheek. “So when your 48 hours are up how long will it be before I see you again?”

He sighed softly at both the kiss and the mention of her loosing her virginity. Then, letting that thought go, he shrugged. "Wish I knew. Command is sending my ship out to some planet called Erisia. We're replacing the unit that's currently there, at our embassy, doing Diplomatic Protection duties. From what I've heard, it's usually a three-year tour."

“Three years!!” Kara looked dismayed at the thought of not seeing her brother again for three years. “Promise me you’ll keep in touch?”

"Of course I will! We'll call each other every week, or every other week, depending on your schooling and my duties. Okay?" He gave her a reassuring squeeze.

Kara smiled warmly. “I’ll hold you to that! Ohh did I tell you? I’m taking the medical track at the Academy, that and Operations. I want to work in medical.”

"There ya go!" Mattias said, beaming with pride. "I told you medical was your calling. I knew it back when we were kids!" He leaned in and kissed her on her forehead. "Well now! We should go out and celebrate! You jump in the shower, and I'll try to find something, in your replicator's memory, to wear. Then, while you're getting ready, I'll jump in the shower. We'll do the boxes later."

“Agreed” Kara nodded and hopped off the bed. She slipped out of her clothing and strolled off naked into the bathroom. It wasn’t like he hadn’t seen her naked.

Mattias still blushed and quickly averted his gaze. He started doing complex math in his head to try and distract his thoughts, and body, away from other ideas.

Walking into the shower Kara needed a cool down too, yes she was sore but her body was crying out for more enjoyment. She turned on the shower and stood cooling off trying not to think about luring Mattias to join her.

"Ummm..." came a familiar voice from the bedroom. "What's the..uh..the password to unlock your replicator?"

“Sorry! It’s 6969” Kara giggled. “Not my choice! It was the automatic set code.”

Mattias replied with nervous laughter. "Uh...heh..yeah. someone's idea of a joke no doubt." He couldn't stop the thought of that type of intimacy with Kara, and hoped that she didn't pick up on it, ashamed, for some reason, for even having it.

Kara had not only picked up on it She was feeling it too, his longing and his shame. She hung her head wishing she could take that shame away.

A few minutes later, Mattias was back in the bedroom. "I...uh...I found a couple options. Was wondering...um...which you'd think would look better on me. All I wear lately is either my duty uniform or my pt tanktop and shorts."

Kara appeared from the bathroom wrapped in a large towel with her hair wrapped in a hair wrap. “Let’s see.” She looked at the options. “This one” She picked a nice looking t-shirt. “And... those” she pointed to a slim fitting set of black jeans. “That’ll look nice on you.”

Nodding, he took the other items and returned them to the replicator, returning their matter to the local storage facility. He was still trying to get the earlier thought out of his head. Though a part of him kept perking up with curiosity.

Kara walked over to her wardrobe and pulled out a dress. Drying off she slipped it on. “Would you zip me up please?” Kara looked towards her brother with a smile, holding her hair up out of the way so he could get to the zip.

Moving over to stand behind Kara, Mattias inhaled a heavy dose of her sweet, very pleasant perfume. "That's...uh...that's honeysuckle...isn't it?" It had always been his favorite. It was the first perfume scent that she had ever worn, and he had enjoyed it on her ever since then.

Kara nodded. “I use it because it reminds me of home.” She smiled feeling all manor of feelings with him being so close to her.

Mattias was trying very hard to clear his mind. Nothing more could happen! It couldn't!!

Except....

He couldn't stop the flood of thoughts going through his mind. "I...I'm sorry! He turned and hurried into the bathroom, closing the door behind him. He then collapsed into the shower stall, his back to the wall. He sat there, and wept. He wept for how things had been, how things were now, how things would be going forward. Most of all, he wept for wanting to do more.

"No... I'm sorry." Kara lay on the bed and curled up into a ball. What had happened, had happened. She couldn't take it back now. They just had to move on with their lives.

A short while later, the sound of the shower running could be heard through the door.

Kara didn't move, she simply lay on the bed listening to the sound of the water running. It was a soothing sound but she now felt more unhappy than happy.

For a long time, Mattias stayed in the shower. First freezing, then as hot as he could stand. Anything to clear his mind.

Kara was getting worried, getting up she walked to the bathroom door and called her brother. “Matt are you okay?”

From inside the shower, Mattias turned off the water. "I guess," he replied quietly.

Waiting for Mattias to come back out Kara sat down on the end of the bed. As the bathroom door opened she looked towards him. “I’m so sorry! I should never have... I can’t take it back or I would.”

Mattias lift his hands to stop her. "Its not totally your fault. I'm to blame as well. I could have said no. Instead, I gave in to my lessor nature. You are an intelligent, beautiful woman. Were we not siblings, I would be honored to be your partner. Quite frankly, you’re above my level." He sighed, then continued, making sure his towel was secure. "However, we are siblings, so, we need to get dressed, go out, have a great time, and never speak of this again. Fair?"

Kara nodded and smiled. “Fair, but for what it’s worth you gave me the best present a woman could ever want.” She walked over to the mirror and picked up her hair brush brushing her hair. “Let’s live this day like its our last day alive!”

Mattias sighed. Then he smiled. He still loved Kara deeply. He would just have to be diligent that nothing ever happened again. Grabbing his clothes, he moved into the living room to get dressed.

Giving him time to dress Kara joined him in the living room. “Are we ready? I’m only eighteen once and I’m intending to enjoy myself!” She grinned.

Looking over at her, Mattias grinned. "Yeah, I'm about as ready as I'll ever be. Let's go."

“So... are you gonna allow me to drink?” Kara looked at Mattias as they exited her apartment.

"Sure," Mattias replied without looking at her. "When you're at legal limit." He had a small smirk on his face as he spoke.

“Hey! I’m 18! That’s legally an adult!” She gave him a grin. “Don’t worry I’ve no wish to get drunk.”

"That's good," He replied. "While your Betazoid half is at legal age, your human half isn't." He didnt mention that she had already recieved her first buzz, from the honey nectar. Plus, after what they had just done, was he really on any moral high horse any more?