Torn ***MATURE CONTENT*** LONG POST WARNING

Posted on Thu Sep 9th, 2021 @ 2:39am by Commodore Phoenix Lalor-Richardson & Captain Mattias Richardson [Reece]

Mission: MISSION 0 - History Speaks
Location: Montgomery Scott
Timeline: 2389
11272 words - 22.5 OF Standard Post Measure

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Do not read if you have an issue with sexual writings

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Phoenix stared at the PADD in her hands. Orders. Transfer orders. Her fingers spasmed around it. Her chrono pinged. She sighed. She had a date with Mattias ... and now she had to tell him. Tell him she was being transferred. Standing she placed the PADD on her bedside table and checked her outfit. A dark blue dress which cut off just above her knees and the low blue heels. She studied her hair and grabbed a brush, she pulled it out of her normal chignon and brushed it out, letting it hang loose. After touching up her minimal make up she headed for the door and the main crew lounge for her date. This was going to suck.

It took her 10 minutes to make it there and paused just inside the doorway looking around for Mattias.

Mattias had arrived early (he always did) and was already sitting at the table closest to the viewports, which he had reserved for them. He was dressed in a simple, dark green suit, with a silver-blue pocket square poking slightly out of the pocket above his left chest. He was excited about tonight. He and Phoenix had been fully dating now for three months tonight. He often thought about that first night on Pacifica, when they had been together for the first time, and he always smiled. He knew that Phoenix could have anyone she wanted. What he still found surprising, was that she wanted him. He hoped she never grew bored of him. He certainly knew that he was both lucky that she chose him, and, he could never do any better than Phoenix Lalor.

As he looked up from his thoughts, it was like he saw a vision of Aphrodite herself. Standing, he smiled as he looked at Phoenix. She was stunning!

She caught his look and smile and smiled back as she crossed over to him. "Hi" she said with her smile upping a notch. "You look very handsome."

Mattias was at a loss when Phoenix first approached the table. Finally, after he picked his tongue up off the deck and put it back in his mouth, he swallowed and said, "You look.... I mean..... WOW!"

She gave a soft laugh and sat down opposite him. "Thank you."

After pushing her chair in, Mattias moved back to his side of the table and sat down. "I really mean it, Honey. You look stunning! And I like how you let you hair down. You are beautiful!"

Phoenix blushed slightly. "So.. I.." she broke off. "It can wait." she waved her words off. "What do you recommend for dinner?"

As if on cue, Rixx appeared. "Ah, my two favorite diners. My goodness, Miss Lalor, you are absolutely radiant tonight!" He leaned in to whisper, "He's a lucky man!" Then he stood back up and looked at Mattias. "Ah, Captain, I see you do know how to clean up." He lowered his tone slightly. "You better be careful, I might steal her away from you!"

Another laugh escaped Phoenix's lips. "Hmm might be fun" she teased, her eyes sparkling. "What is good tonight Rixx?"

The Bolian beamed at Phoenix. "Well, tonight, we have a few specials. Each one is made from fresh produce and seafood brought straight up from Pacifica earlier today. For appetizers, we have a freshly fried calamari and a dozen of the local oysters, freshly shucked right before they are served raw at the table. We have a fresh house salad, with freshly sliced water pear slices. And for dinner, we have a freshly grilled octopus and a fourteen ounce Dralgora shark steak."

"Wow" Phoenix smiled and looked at Mattias. "Sounds good?"

Mattias nodded and smiled.

Rixx said, "I'll let you think about it for a few minutes. What would you care to drink?"

"My special request, please, Rixx." Mattias replied.

Rixx nodded and smiled. "Of course, Sir. Be right back."

Phoenix let her gaze drop when Rixx left. Her hands placed in her lap and entwined her fingers.

Looking back to Phoenix, Mattias could see that something was bothering her. His smile fell and he sat forward, reaching for her. "Honey, what's wrong?"

She looked up, and bit her lip "I got new orders" she whispered softly "Transfer orders." Her eyes were welling and she blinked rapidly to hold back tears, she did NOT cry in public.

Mattias was shocked. "But...but you just got here..." he suddenly worried that they would lose each other, even after all this time. "Do..do you wanna get out of here?"

"Nearly a full year Mattias, and NO of course I don't" She replied leaning forward. "But I do not have enough points to fight it."

Mattias realized how what he said had sounded. "No! No nono! I meant, did you wanna get outta here, the lounge, so we could be alone?"

"If we leave now, Rixx will be insulted." She said softly.

Mattias considered this for a moment. "I'll go talk to him." He stood. "Stay here, honey." He then moved off to speak to Rixx.

Phoenix sat there as he left, she did not want to leave. But orders were orders. Gods she hated orders at times.

A few moments later, Mattias returned. "Come on, sweetheart," he said as he offered his hand to Phoenix. "Rixx is gonna create a special dinner for us personally and deliver it to my quarters. That way, we won't be interrupted by anything tonight."

Phoenix allowed him to pull her to her feet and then she snuggled into his side as they walked from the lounge together.

Several minutes later, they were entering his quarters. They hadn't said much during the whole trip down, both being unsure about what to say.

Phoenix's composure was fracturing as the door slid shut behind them. Her arms were wrapped around her body tightly even as she leaned into him for comfort. "this... is ... it .. stinks" she got out from between clenched teeth.

Mattias wrapped his arms around Phoenix and held her close to him. "I know, my love, I know. What ship are they sending you to?"

"The USS Hydra. I leave in two days" She buried her face in his chest.

"The Hydra?" Mattias asked thoughtfully, then grimaced. "Shit...." he swore softly. "The Hydra's only got a platoon-level Marine compliment. No way HQ is gonna shift a combat vet Captain over into a butter bar's slot."

"It sucks!" Her use of human vernacular was growing but at least she used it correctly when she did.

Relaxing his hold slightly, Mattias said softly, "Look at me."

She raised her head and met his eyes

Setting his eyes on her stunning silvery-blue eyes, Mattias continued. "Does it suck? Absolutely! Did this happen at the worst time? Definitely! However, we will figure it out. It took us four years to find each other and look where we are after a year? So in what, another four years, we'll find each other again, get married and have lots of babies. You're not free of me, my love. Not by a long shot."

"i don't want to hold you back Mattias." She whispered. "You shouldn't have to put your life on hold for me."

Mattias couldn't believe what he was hearing! "Wait! We..we...we could make it work! Long distance relationships can work!"

"a-are you certain?" she asked softly

Mattias wanted to tell her yes. He wanted to assure her that nothing would ever separate them. He wanted...oh, he wanted many things. However, he knew that real life was often a cruel mistress. With a sad, deflated look, he leaned his forehead against hers. "I desperately want to say yes, my love. This past year has been the happiest of my life! I don't want to lose you!" He hugged her tightly again. Then, he loosened his hold again and said, "How about...we stay in touch...meet up every chance we can. However, should life take us down separate paths, we at least always remain friends. Whenever you need me, call me and I'll do my best to get by your side."

Phoenix nodded. "Same goes" She whispered softly into his neck.

Mattias closed his eyes and moan softly. They had only been together a year, and seriously intimate the last three months, but she already knew exactly which buttons to press to get his heat rising.

Phoenix drew back slightly. Her face showed concern. "A-are you ok?" she asked nervously.

Hearing her tone was like a bucket of ice water being dplashed in his face. "What?! Oh! Ummm..." he started to blush and turned his eyes away. "I'm...I'm sorry. That....that just felt real nice."

Her lips curved slowly. "Hmm ok" She reached up and touched his face. "I love you" She whispered.

Hearing those words, his embarrassment dropped away instantly. Looking back into her eyes, his were shining. "I love you too!" He then pulled he into a deep, passionate kiss.

Phoenix all but melted against him, pushing the thoughts of her transfer from her mind as she revelled in being in his arms and their mouths joined.

All thought, save one, faded from his mind. Bring Phoenix Lalor as much joy as possible. Moving his hands over her body as they continued to kiss.

As they kissed, Phoenix slid her hands around his chest and down. She knew how to touch him, to set him aflame and she wanted to do that for as long as time as they had left.

Feeling her hands moving over his chest and back, Mattias quickly removed his suit jacket while they continued to kiss. He then moved his hands over her back and ass.

Phoenix moaned softly and whispered "I... should... call in sick tomorrow..." she nipped at his lower lip. "Spend the day here with you."

He growled softly. "Yeah..." he whispered as he moved his mouth to her neck. "You..you..seem quite...ill." he continued to kiss and nibble her neck. "Quite ill indeed."

"Hmmm I am sure you can take care of me..." she moaned and shifted against him. Before she could say more there was a knock on the door.

Mattias was about to reply, then growled when he heard the knock at the door. "If that is anyone but Rixx..." he left the threat unsaid as he begrudgingly released his hold on Phoenix and moved to the door. Once he reached it, he reached up and hit the control to open the door.

Rixx was on the other side, a smile on his face. "As promised, Captain, I made a special meal for you and Ensign Lalor. I created a sampler of the favourite foods you both enjoyed together."

Phoenix had moved and now sat on the couch and was calmly looking like nothing had been happening. She shot Rixx a polite smile.

Mattias gave his friend a warm smile. "Thanks, Rixx, this means a lot! I'll bring the cart back sometime later tomorrow."

The jovial Bolian smiled and shook his head. "Don't worry about it, Sir. It has a transporter tag in it. When you're ready, just send me a signal and I'll have it beamed back. Enjoy yourselves." He gave Mattias a warm grin again then, smiled and waved at Phoenix before turning away and leaving.

Mattias smiled softly at the generosity of the ship's chef, then carefully pulled the hovercart back into his cabin. "That Rixx, I tell ya. He's a great guy!"

"He is indeed" Phoenix stood up when he pushed the cart into the room.

Moving the cart over to the dining table, Mattias asked, "What would you care to taste first?"

Phoenix moved to his side and studied the array. "Gee hard choice." she said as she leaned against him, wanting the comfort of his body next to her's.

Feeling Phoenix snuggle up to him, and inhaling her sweet aroma, Mattias was suddenly hungry for much more than just food. Turning, he gently swept her long hair clear of the left side of her neck, leaned in and began kissing her neck ever so softly.

Phoenix shivered and moaned softly. "I-if we waste the food... Rixx will be disappointed.." She whispered.

Mattias growled softly into her ear. "Then eat you fill. You're going to need the energy."

Phoenix smiled at him. "Am I? I'd say the same about you"

Mattias gave her a wolf's grin. "That sounds like a challenge, your highness. I accept." He then filled a plate for Phoenix, before filling a plate for himself. They then sat and began to eat.

Once they had finished, Phoenix cleaned up while Mattias sent the tray back, then she stood beside the couch and waited for him to return.

Mattias returned a few minutes later. As soon as the doors slid shut behind him, he ordered the computer to lock them and activate a do not disturb message. He then looked at Phoenix as if she was a juicy steak, ready to be eaten. "C'mere," he said softly.

She took a step towards him, her eyes filled with mischief. "And... if I... don't want to?" she asked innocently.

He took a few menacing steps towards her. "Then you will be spanked, like the spoiled little princess that you are." His voice was extremely husky as he spoke.

She calmly twisted a strand of hair around her finger and shifted on her feet. "Hmm not that tempting" she teased.

He stopped moving right when they were toe to toe. Reaching up with his right hand, he gently ran it up the side of her body, to her neck, her cheek, up into her hair, where he grabbed a handful and pulled her head back so he could look down into her wide, beautiful eyes. "Never," he whispered hoarsely, "disobey your master, slave!" He forced her back to the bed. "Get those clothes off of your body! I never gave you permission to cover yourself up!"

With a smile and lowered lashes she reached up and unzipped the back of the dress and let it slide from her body, leaving her in bra and panties. She kicked off the heals and turned slowly around as she undid the bra, let it fall and then slid her panties down her legs.

Mattias's mouth began to water when he saw Phoenix strip down. His heart skipped a beat, seeing how absolutely stunning she was. The scars that crisscrossed her back, did nothing to detract from her near angelic beauty. He had to swallow just to make sure he wasn't dreaming.

"You've...you've made your master very happy by continuing to take care of your body. I was certainly the victor of the bargain over your sale price."

She slanted him a smile as she faced him fully. "I learned from The best Master."

Reaching out, Mattias grabbed Phoenix by the arm and pulled her to him. He then began to cover her neck in soft kisses.

Shifting closer to him, Phoenix slid her arms around him. She knew she could tease him to the point where he carried through on his threat.

Mattias purred into Phoenix's ear when he felt her hands moving over his, still clothed, body. "It has been a very long day. Help your master out of his clothes, and then join him in the shower."

Phoenix smirked now and began to strip him out of his suit. She took her time though, pressing her lips to his skin as she exposed it.

Each time he felt Phoenix's lips on his skin, Mattias either gasped or moaned softly. He was certainly heating up from the delicate attention. He would have to reward her in kind in the shower. It amazed him how much their tenderness with each other melded so seamlessly with their sexplay. It was one of the things that drove him so mad for her. She could switch so easily from the timid mouse to the stalking lioness with a flick of the switch, that sometimes, he wondered exactly who was the master and who was the slave.

Phoenix pushed his pants down but stopped and gave him a small smile. "Do I continue kissing master?"

Mattias nodded and replied breathlessly. "Y-yes
..continue...continue kissing...."

She knelt and began kissing his thighs and avoiding his manhood for the time being.

Mattias's gasps and moans grew a little louder, the more aroused he became. He put his right hand on the back of Phoenix's head as she continued.

When his hand buried into her hair she finally took him into her mouth.

Mattias gasped and moaned loudly at that. Looking down at Phoenix as she began working him over, Mattias couldn't help but think how perfect this woman was, and how absolutely lucky he was, to be with her. Though their time together on the Monty was coming to an end, he hoped that, one day, they would find each other again.

Phoenix had learned lots about him and his reactions over the past few months so she knew when he was getting close to climax. She gently withdrew her mouth from him and rocked back onto her heals as she looked up at him from beneath her lashes.

Growling like a caged beast, Mattias pulled Phoenix up to her feet and after grabbing her hair tight again, he hisses quietly at her. "You better not be teasing me, princess!" He then released her hair and, after placing his hands under her armpits, lifted her up off the deck, and tossed her upon the bed. He then finished removing his clothes and crawled in after her, grabbing her ankles, to keep her from escaping.

"Never Master. You said you wanted a shower... I was trying to please you by letting you go there" her tone was innocent but her eyes held daring and mischief.

"You do not let me do anything!" His voice was heavy with lust and desire for her. "I am the master. You are the slave. I am the one who lets you do things, so long as it pleases me." He finished climbing atop her and moved her hands above her head, pinning them there as he kissed her deeply.

Hdr lips curved beneath his and she arched her back, pushing against him wantonly. She couldn't reply because of his lips on hers but she let a giggle escape.

Hearing her giggle, Mattias couldn't help but smile. And just like that, they went from Master dominating his slave, to two people, madly in love, enjoying one another to the fullest extent possible. He released her hands and slide his arms down to balance his weight on his elbows. When he finally came up for air, he paused, seemingly hypnotized by her beautiful eyes. "I love you, Phoenix Lalor." No truer words had ever been spoken.

"I love you Mattias Richardson" she whispered back staring into his eyes. "Lian, Thiramen."

Mattias closed his eyes and felt an invigorating tingle run up his spine. "My heart and soul are yours, forever, My Princess, My Queen."

Phoenix reached up and stroked his face with her hand. "Forever" she whispered.

Mattias looked longingly into her eyes, then lowered his face down to kiss her. As he did so, he positioned himself between her legs and, gently, slowly, slid his manhood deep inside of her center.

"Thiramen." She moaned as she shifted to allow him deeper penetration and slid her arms around his shoulders. She parted her lips for his and enjoyed the sensations of him sliding deep inside of her.

He kissed her deeply as they began to move as one. Though they may meet others while they were seperated, their hearts and souls would always be the two perfect halves that makes a whole.

Phoenix wrapped her legs around his hips as they kissed and moved together. She let their actions drive out any thoughts of the future without him, as she focused on the here and now with him.

Mattias melted into Phoenix as he continued to drive into her. Nothing else existed but her and him. Nowhere else existed but right here. As he continued to thrust, the build up of their play had pushed him close to the point of no return.

She broke their kiss and nibbled on his neck as her movements matched his as their pleasure built towards the peak that would send them both spiraling into pleasure.

Mattias gasped when he felt he nibbling his neck. He increased the strength of his thrusting. "I-I'm...I'm ..close!"

"Saesa Lian!" she breathed her words into his ear. " Aestar thiramen."

Nodding rapidly, Mattias tried to gauge his speed and power on what Phoenix's body was telling him. He could feel her getting close as well. He kept the speed and power constant, so as to ensure that her climb to ecstasy would not be interrupted.

Her whimpers reached his ears and she moaned his name softly as her body trembled beneath his with unreleased pleasure. "Matt.."

Feeling her tremble, he finally hit that point of no return. A few moments later, he suddenly tensed up and, grunting loudly, exploded fully, and completely, into her centre.

Her own body followed his into the spiral of pleasure and she cried out his name.

After a few beats of Mattias finally finished filling Phoenix, and his body relaxed. Gasping for air, he hung his head on the pillow next to her head. "That...that was amazing!" He whispered as the feeling of euphoria began to wash over him.

Phoenix nuzzled his neck and nodded "Yes indeed," she whispered.

He purred softly, feeling her so close to him. Slowly, he rolled them over, so that he was on his back and she was laying upon his chest. "You're an amazing woman, Phee. I am so lucky to have you in my life."

"I am the lucky one Matt" she whispered. Gently she pressed her lips to his chest and curled against him.

Mattias made a soft approving sound when Phoenix kissed him and then curled against his body. "This must be what heaven feels like."

"hmmm" She all but purred. "Dinner with you and then this, I think it has been a great evening."

Mattias nodded slowly and sighed. Being with Phoenix was paradise for him. Giving her a slight squeeze, he said softly, "Promise me that you'll live your life too, sweetheart. I will be overjoyed, should we find one another in the future. I know this much, when, not if, we find our way back to each other, I am never going to let you go."

Phoenix listened and nodded. "I won't let go either," she replied. "But I will keep you close in my heart." And she would. A secret part that no one else would ever touch other than him.

Leaning his head up, Mattias kissed Phoenix again. Nothing rushed or too overly powerful. However, its tenderness held an amazing power all its own. It was a kiss that would only belong to this woman, none other. There might be other women who would enter his heart, but, Phoenix Lalor would be the only woman who would ever own his heart and soul.

Smiling she kissed him back just as gently. "Love you" she whispered

Mattias's face split with a toothy grin. "I love you too, sweetheart. Forever."

Slowly Phoenix sat up and straddled him. "I don't want this night to stop Thiramen." She said softly. She leaned down and brushed her lips over his. "I want memories to keep me warm at my new posting. I want you to enjoy yourself with my body."

Feeling her energy change, along with how she spoke to him, Mattias's manhood started to quickly return to the party. "The same goes for you, my love." He reached up with both hands and gently squeezed her breasts, feeling her soft flesh under his strong fingers.

She gave a soft moan and shifted against him. Her eyes fixed on his as she rubbed against him slowly.

It took a good portion of Mattias's willpower to keep his eyes open as waves of ecstasy washed over him. He gasped and started to pant slightly as Phoenix continued to rub against his growing manhood.

Smiling Phoenix raised herself up and felt his tip press against her inner folds. But she didn't lower herself to take him in. She instead teased him by staying still and kissing his chest.

Mattias growled softly before placing his hands on her hips and pullng her upon his manhood, burying it deep inside of her.

A breathy laugh escaped Phoenix's lips as she took him deep. She lifted laughing eyes to his as she slowly began to move.

Mattas returned her look with his wolfy grin. If tonight would be the last they would ever be together, he planned on making it last as long as possible. "No one will ever be able to do to you what I can," he said in a heavy, lust-filled voice.

"No, only you" She gasped out.

"And no woman....will ever...ever make me feel as you do, ever!" He uttered breathlessly as she continued to ride him.

Her lips curved at that a pleased smile. "One aims to please, Lian" she groaned out as she upped her pace for him.

His mouth fell open in a loud moan. She had learned rapidly just how to ignite his passions. In fact, she had gone further and had found new ways to do so.

Leaning down she slid her lips across his and whispered in his ear "I love you inside me, Lian"

Reaching up, he took a large handful of her hair and pulled her head up. "Get on your hands and knees and I'll really fill you!"

She laughed and slid off of him and got onto her hands and knees for him.

As soon as Phoenix climbed off of him, Mattias sat up and moved up onto his knees, directly behind her. Taking hold of her right hip with his right hand, he used his left hand to guide himself inside of her center. Then, moving his left hand to her left hip, he slowly pulled her onto him. Then back out, each time, the speed increased, as did the force, until he was driving into her with such force, their bodies were slapping together.

With each thrust and subsequent withdrawal Phoenix moaned and whimpered while clenching around him as he had taught her. She groaned his name as their pace increased.

Mattias was in ultimate bliss. There was no woman who could hold a candle to Phoenix Lalor. If it took him the rest of his life, he would find her again and, once he did, he would show her how deep his love and devotion for her was.

Her hair was tossed back as she whimpered her pleasure. "Mattias!"

Hearing her call out his name spurred him on, finally pushing them both over the edge into mindnumbing bliss.

Once he had given her everything he had, his strength was sapped. Slowly, he pulled free of her trembling hold and collapsed onto his back, sweat pouring freely as he tried to catch his breath, a drunk smile filled his face. "Holy fuck!"

Phoenix collasped beside him with a whimper of his name. Her lips were curved in a smile and her eyes glazed with pleasure. "Hmmmm wonderful Mattias"

Reaching out, he pulled Phoenix into his side. "Every time with you is better than the last, darlin'."

Content and a bit worn out, she snuggled against him and let her hands gently touch his chest as if memorizing him.

Sighing softly, Mattias closed his eyes. As he started to fully relax, he smirked softly and said, "Don't forget, there's always breakfast."

"hmm and tomorrow" she whispered as she closed her own eyes.

He smiled. "Whatever you wanna do tomorrow, that's what we'll do." He gently kissed her forehead, before settling into the pillows.

"hmm stay here with you" she mumbled as sleep claimed her. She did not want to move from his arms and felt safe there.

Mattias smiled warmly. He felt her drift off to sleep. "I love that idea," he replied, barely above a whisper. Soon thereafter, he too, slipped into slumber.

==

The next morning Phoenix slipped from the bed and glanced at him with a warm smile. She moved to the console in the living area and sent in her sick notice before moving to the kitchen to prepare breakfast for them both.

A few minutes later, when his body finally recognized the lack of warmth, he woke up, very groggy. "Babe?" He called out, still half asleep.

Phoenix came back in with a smile. "Good morning!" she said brightly.

Upon seeing her beautiful face, Mattias smiled warmly. "Good morning to you as well!" He sat up on his elbows. "How long have you been up?"

"Not long." Phoenix replied "I'll be back in bed in five minutes. Can you wait for me?"

He made a face as he growled and considered. " I guess. But a second after five minutes, and I'm calling in a search and rescue party."

"It will be worth the wait" She said and headed back out.

Five minutes almost to the minute later, she stepped back through with a tray. "Breakfast," she announced as she placed it on the bed between them. She had made all his favorites.

Seeing her return with such an impressive spread, Mattias sat up and chuckled. "Phee, what have you been up to? Do you have any replicator credits left?" Then his features softened. "Thank you. You didn't have to do all this, you treat me too good!"

"I have a few left over" She admitted. She slid onto the bed beside him. "I thought it would be nice to have breakfast in bed. I have not had it in years."

Leaning over, Mattias gave Phoenix a soft, loving kiss. "Thank you," he whispered again when he broke the connection. If there was a definition for the look he had in his eyes, it was pure, unadulterated, love.

Phoenix smiled back at him, her own emotions shining through her eyes. "You are welcome." she whispered.

Sighing contently, he sat back and took in the delicious offerings she had replicated for him. "Guess first thing would be the coffee." He picked up the steaming mug of raktajino and took a sip. "Mmmmmm," he moaned softly. "Extra sweet!"

"Is it ok? I asked the replicator for exactly how you take it," she asked as she picked up her own mug of tea.

He gave Phoenix a warm grin. "It's perfect, sweetheart!" He then cut a piece of his Belgian waffle, dipped it in the ramekin of syrup, and held it out to Phoenix. "Ladies first."

She laughed and took the bite he offered her with a smile. "Thank you kind sir"

Hearing her laugh warmed his heart considerably. "You're most certainly welcome, my lady." He then cut another bit and ate it slowly. Relishing the flavors.

They ate together in comfort, sharing food and talking about things that did not focus on what was to happen in the coming days. Once they had finished, Phoenix took the tray back to the kitchen area and then returned to the bedroom.

Mattias had moved the sheet and blanket back and was waiting for Phoenix to rejoin him in bed. He had a grin of perfect contentment on his face.

Phoenix walked over to the bed and climbed onto it. "So what are you thinking about?" she asked.

After covering her with the covers, Mattias replied. "Just how happy I am with you in my life. You are the best thing to ever happen to me."

"You are the best thing that happened to me" She said back as she snuggled against him. "I'd be dead..."

"Shhh, shh, shh..." Mattias put his fingers up to Phoenix's mouth, quieting her sad words. "That will never happen, so long as I'm drawing breath. You know how to reach me, through both official and unofficial channels. You ever need me, for any reason, you call. I will be there, my love."

"I know." She whispered. "I know. Same goes" she nuzzled his neck, "I am just going to enjoy these last hours with you."

Holding her to him, he replied. "And I, you, my Queen. And I you."

For a while, they didn't say anything, neither wanting time to move. Finally, as Mattias continued to run his hand over her bare back, he could feel some of her muscles were tight. "Honey, would you like a massage?"

She shook her head and snuggled closer. "Hmm no. I am fine like this" she said. "its nice to lie here like this with you."

Smiling, Mattias purred softly. "You know, young lady, you get any closer and we will be one." He paused and then said, "In fact, c'mere."

Phoenix shifted and moved so she was laying on top of him "Like this?"

He made a soft approving sound in his throat and nodded. "I do so love seeing you above me. I love seeing you below me just as much." He gave her a devilish grin.

She smiled back at him. "As I enjoy the same views" She shifted her hips so she brushed his manhood.

Mattias gasped softly, feeling Phoenix rubbing against him. "You truly...ahhhh...are a wonder..mmmmm..." he closed his eyes and gently bit his lower lip as he moaned.

"Want me to stop?" She asked teasingly as she nipped at his lips gently.

Shaking his head, he looked at her with eyes full of desire. "I'm yours to do with as you wish, my Queen."

"Hmm really?" she drawled and slid her hands down his chest. "Hmmm... an interesting proposal... and I have such interesting thoughts..."

Running his hands up over her thighs, to her back, Mattias grinned and arched an eyebrow. "Oh? Do tell, your highness."

She smiled, and licked her lips. "Hmm keeping you here, at my mercy, I wonder how long I can keep you ready to go without letting you release?" she leaned down again and licked his neck lightly.

Mattias's breath caught in his throat and he gasped, then moaned, biting his lower lip as Phoenix started causing shivers run up and down his spine. "I...I might be...be interes...ssted in that....uhhhhhhhh...that info..."

With another smile, this one, impish, she kissed and licked her way slowly down his chest, taking her time, making sure every inch was touched by her lips.

He kept his hands on her back, touching her, but not hindering her movements, as he looked down and watched Phoenix move lower and lower on his body.

"Hmm no touching darling" she whispered. And she nuzzled his neck before resuming her exploration of his body. "How long can you last before you need to touch me?" She shifted so she straddled his left thigh instead of his waist.

Mattias gripped the sheets out to his sides, using all of his willpower to not just grab Phoenix. "Marines....Marines don't quit!" He said through gasps of pleasure.

"Hmmm we shall see" she whispered and gently slid her fingers down his length. "I wonder if I can get you to beg.." she mused and traced patterns along it as he grew beneath her touch. Then she stopped teasing him and slid her lips down his thighs.

He gasped loudly as she touched and teased him. The sensations were exploding in his mind, causing all rational thought to evaporate. He would let a whimper of pleasure escape his open mouth when her soft kisses moved towards his member. However, he wouldn't, couldn't, break.

Smirking Phoenix raised her eyes up and watched his face. She slid her tongue across his tip slowly.

Mattias threw his head back and gasped loudly. He gripped the bottom sheet so tight, he actually untucked it from the mattress. "Ohhhhhh...urnnnngh!!! Holy Fuck!"

She gave a soft laugh. "Did you enjoy that?" She asked impishly. "Shall I stop?"

Breathing heavily, Mattias shook his head vigorously. "No! Fuck no!! I want more! Give your Lian more!"

Her laughter wafted her breath across his manhood and she took her time, slowly trailing her tongue over his heated skin before cooling it with her breath.

Her hands skimmed down his thighs and she trailed her nails up his inner thighs as she continued to tease him with just her tongue.

Every muscle on Mattias's well-built body flexed and rippled as Phoenix continued her teasing. He started to to growl through clenched teeth as he looked down at her.

She raised innocent eyes to his. "You said you wanted more" she said innocently and then did her tongue flick again, across his tip. "I can continue or I can stop."

"I want more than just your devilish tongue!" He snarled. I want all of you! Down to the very last atom!"

She knelt between his legs and smirked. "No touching remember" she said impishly as she lowered her head, her hair falling like a curtain around her face as she took him into her mouth.

He reacted instantly, gasping for breath as his manhood throbbed inside of her mouth.

"uh uh" Phoenix said raising her head. "Don't you dare climax yet!"

Mattias swallowed hard and shook his head. "No! No...not ....not yet!"

"You have to beg first darling" She challenged him.

He growled again. His hands, looking like claws, trembling to grab her.

"Hmm, not going to beg?" she stroked him with her hand slowly. "ok, then I can keep going"

Finally unable to hold back any longer, Mattias whimper softly. "...please..."

"Please what?" she asked softly leaning closer "I could not hear you Love"

"Please...fuck me..."

There was a soft laugh and Phoenix straddled him and slowly took him into her body, she lowered herself extremely slowly.

Her slow movements were frustrating him. Snarling at her, he said, "Stop teasing me......!"

"Aww but you like it so" She teased but she stopped and began to move on him as he liked her to.

"Ye...yes...yes!!!" Then he growled again. Grabbing onto her, Mattias rolled them over, putting Phoenix on her back. "My turn," he hissed. He then pulled out of her and, after pinning her hands above her head, said, "Keep you hands here!"

"Hey" she muttered. "I was having fun" she smiled up at him. But she kept her hands up where he told her though.

Planting kisses and bites on her soft flesh, Mattias slowly made his way down Phoenix's body, looking up into her eyes, to see her reactions.

She whimpered "I.. thought you wanted to be... inside me." she moaned as her body tingled

Mattias moved down to her thighs, kissing, then gently biting several spots, all while avoiding her center.

Phoenix closed her eyes and let him have his way. Her body trembled beneath him and small moans escaped her lips.

Slowly, Mattias placed gentle kisses on her mons pubis, then, slid the tip of his tongue down, in-between her outer layers, to her most sensitive spot and then, he started to slowly run the tip of his tongue over and around it.

Phoenix cried out in pleasure and her hands clenched. "Matt!" She gasped out as her legs trembled as she struggled to keep them parted for him.

Smiling to himself, he continued his slow attentions of her most sensitive spot, alternating between using his tongue and his lips. After a few beats more, he looked up at her and smirked in reply. "Do you want me to stop?"

"No." She replied breathlessly. "I want you to keep going..."

"As you wish," he replied with a hungry smile. He then buried his face in her center, determined to drive her to new heights of pleasure.

"I won't beg." She whimpered. "I won't break." She let the pleasure swamp her.

He used her words of defiance to fuel his pleasuring of her. He would make her break. She would beg him to fill her, quite soon.

Her hands clenched over and over but she bit down on her lip, letting her body enjoy the pleasure. She whimpered and trembled but she refused to beg, any words that tumbled from her lips were mumbled but not begging words.

Hearing her mutters of defiance, he added the fingers of his right hand to his arsenal, sliding them inside of her and then gently rubbing the spot hidden inside.

Her hips bucked and she gritted her teeth. her body was close to climax and Phoenix was struggling to not climax.

As he continued to digitally stimulate her, Mattias lifted his face up. "All it takes is a word, and the torment will stop." He grinned softly.

"No.. I won't" she groaned, "Though I am surprised you have been able to wait."

"You will, my love. You will." Realizing that he needed to up his game, he pulled his hand free and sat up. "Don't you move. Not if you want to feel me inside of you again."

She lay still and waited. She wondered what he was going to do next.

Standing up, he moved to his large dresser, pulled open the top drawer and pulled out a medium-sized box. He then closed the drawer and moved back to the bed. Keeping the box out of Phoenix's reach and line of sight, he opened the top.

Her eyes followed him and she bit her lip as he opened it. "Matt?"

Reaching into the box, he pulled out a pair of long, black, silk strips. "Yes, my love?" He replied as he moved to secure her hands above her head. Then he went back to the box, looking for something else.

She shifted and looked at the ties. "What are you planning Lian?"

Pulling out the next item, "You do not question your Master!" He then placed the item, A bright red ball gag, into her mouth, tying it behind her head. "You have now lost your right to speak."

Her eyes sparked with interest but there was desire there too. She knew he would tell her how to give the signal if she needed to.

Reaching back in the box, he next pulled out a small string of jingle bells. Holding them up, he shook them. They made an unmistakable tinkling sound. "This is your signal. If, at anytime, you want to stop, just shake them." He reached up and placed them in her right hand. He then went back to the box.

Phoenix clenched them in her hand. she knew he knew her limits, and as long as it was not whip she would handle it.

The next items that he pulled out, were matching silk strips to the first pair. With these, he tied her legs, spread apart. Then, he grabbed another item, a form fitted blindfold mask. He gently slipped it over her head, and then asked, "Is that okay, my love?"

She nodded her head. She knew he was doing it to make her sweat.

"Good. And you can't see anything?"

Phoenix shook her head and waited. She knew something was going to happen.

"Gooood," he drawled out. He then took the feather tickler out and started to touch different parts of her body.

Her fingers clenched. Phoenix was ticklish in certain places and he knew exactly where they were. A soft moan escaped from her gagged mouth.

Smiling to himself, Mattias continued to slowly graze different areas, starting with her breasts and nipples.

Phoenix's back arched and she twisted slightly to avoid the feathers, she squeezed her eyes tightly shut behind the blindfold and whimpered.

His mouth starting to water for her, Mattias slowly moved the tickler lower on her body as he leaned forward and started to gently lick her left brest and nipple.

Another moan escaped Phoenix again and she arched pushing her breast into his mouth.

When she moved closer, Mattias backed off. "Uh-uh-uhh. I didn't give you permission to move. Now for another punishment." His voice was velvety smooth as he spoke.

Her body sagged back into the bed and another whimper escaped her as she waited.

He reach back into the box, rummaging louder than necessary, all to draw out the sensations for Phoenix. He could see that her pulse was beating quickly, her carotid was practically dancing under the skin of her long, slender neck.

She tried to keep still and patient, she was telling herself not to beg, not to let the bells slip from her fingers. She would not give in.

Finally, he picked up the items he was looking for. Reaching over, he secured the small clamps to her nipples, then, gave the the chain connecting them a soft tug, to ensure they were secure.

She groaned and gasped around the gag, and her body flinched as he tugged on the chain.

Smiling to himself, Mattias grabbed another item from the box. After slipping it onto the tip of his left hand index finger, he then activated it. It started to make a soft buzzing sound.

She could hear it, and her whole form tensed up. She could not figure out what it was.

Mattias grinned, seeing Phoenix tense up. Reaching over, he lightly traced her breasts and nipples with the small vibrating button, watching her reaction with growing satisfaction.

Whimpers came from her and her body shifted on the bed as she was unable to keep still any longer.

Moving slowly from one breast to the other, Mattias focused on giving Phoenix just enough stimulation of drive her up to the edge, but not over it. Not yet.

Her whimpers grew but her hands did not open to release the bells. Mainly because she was holding onto them so tight as not to try and reach for him. Her arms strained against the cords as did her legs as she shifted on the bed.

Watching the love of his life squirm in pleasure from his attentions, was making Mattias extremely aroused. Slowly, he moved the vibrating button down her perfect body, and the teased the area surrounding her center, being careful to not enter the tender area yet.

Her body shook and whimpers became wordless cries of pleasure as she trembled and her hips bucked.

In a voice as smooth as silk and full of desire, he spoke to her. "You are powerless against me, your Lian is everything that you will every want and need. Beg for forgiveness, beg to be taken, and you will know pleasure like never before."

Her hips jerked and she whimpered around the gag. Slowly, ever so slowly her hand opened and the bells fell from her fingers.

As soon as he heard the bells jingle, Mattias stopped what he was doing. After he removed the button from his finger, moved up and undid the gag and lifted the mask from her face. "Yes, my love?" He asked as he leaned close, lightly brushing his lips over hers. "Did you want to say something?"

She licked her lips and gasped out "Please... take me Lian.. please..."

Smiling a hungry grin, Mattias put the box aside and then untied Phoenix’s feet and climbed atop of her. He then reached up to untie her wrists.

She shifted beneath him her eyes watching his face as she did so.

Pulling the silk strap, he freed her wrists and looked down at her. The look in his eyes was a mix a wonder, desire, love and lust.

"Please" Phoenix whispered "Please..."

Without a word, he repositioned himself between her spread legs and, after leaning in to kiss her, he slid himself deep into her. He then began to give her all of his talent.

When he took her she moaned his name and her back arched slightly, pushing her body up against him wantonly and she wrapped her legs around his hips.

Feeling her wrap herself around him, spurred him on even further. “Never forget me, my love. Never forget your true Lian. No other will ever make you feel as I do!”

"I won't" Phoenix moaned. "I love you Lian.. " She moved with him.

“I love you….” He replied as he grunted, quickly reaching the point of no return, thanks to all of the wonderful buildup and play that they had been enjoying. A few beats later, his body went rigid and, after a few beats of silence, he grunted and exploded deep inside of her.

His climax took her with it and she cried out his name as her body went into its spasms of pleasure.

After a few seconds, fully spent, Mattias collapsed atop of the woman he loved. He had no rational thoughts any longer. His only thoughts were for Phoenix. Looking deep into her hypnotic eyes, he said, as he caught his breath. “I love… I love you! I will never love anyone….anyone as I love you, My Queen!”

She gently stroked his face and let her eyes tell him her love for him as she lay there accepting his weight. Phoenix pressed her lips to his and she wrapped her arms around him tightly. Tears stung her eyes but she blinked them back. She didn't want to leave, but she knew she would have to.

Sliding his arms under her, Mattias returned the strong embrace as he buried his face in her neck, as he blinked the tears that were filling his eyes away. He gently kissed her neck as he nuzzled against her. He would miss this woman terribly. It was more than just the sex, which was beyond phenomenal, he felt that she was perfect for him, the other half of his soul! He prayed silently, then and there, to find her again, and when he did, to never lose her again.

Phoenix was relaxed in his arms and she snuggled against him, not wanting to move from his arms. She closed her eyes and breathed in his scent and concentrated on committing to memory everything about him.

For a long time, neither lover said a word. They simply held each other, absorbing all that they could of the other, as they quietly wept for the loss they would soon feel.

Hours later, Phoenix slipped from his arms, leaving him slumbering while she showered and headed back to her room to pack. She would be back, she would pack and return to spend her last hours with him. She left him a note to that effect.

About an hour after she slipped out of his quarters, Mattias finally stirred. The lack of warmth from her body next to his ultimately woke him. He started at first, thinking that he had somehow missed her leaving. However, he quickly saw the note that she had written for him, the words bringing a warm smile to his face.

After he read the note, he got up, realizing just how badly he required a shower. After stripping the soiled linens from his bed and depositing them into the reclimater chute, he jumped in the shower, taking his time to make himself as clean as possible, even shaving the scruff that had grown over night. He wanted to look as perfect for Phoenix as he could on their last day together.

It was several hours later when she returned to his cabin, dressed in white capri pants, wedge heals and a dark blue halter top. She wore her hair down as she knew he liked. Everything was packed and ready for transport. Stopping at the door, she knocked and waited.

Hearing the knock, Mattias moved over to the door. He was wearing black slacks, black leather oxfords, with a white button up, long-sleeve shirt, crisply pressed, top two buttons undone.

When he reached the door, he pressed the controls to open it. As soon as his eyes fell on her, they grew wide, almost as wide as the smile that started to fill his face. "Hey you!"

She beamed a smile back at him. "Hey you back" she said as she stepped through the door.

As she entered, his eyes never left her. "You look great!" He leaned down and kissed her.

Phoenix slid her arms around his neck and kissed him back. "Hmm thank you handsome."

Smiling contently, Mattias put his arms around Phoenix, loosely interlocking his fingers behind the small of her back. Pulling her to him, he walked backwards, until he found his large, overstuffed chair, and sat down, pulling her astride his lap. "Are you sure we can't just run away, and never look back?"

"Oh that we could" she whispered leaning into him comfortably. "A dream, a pretty dream."

"We could be halfway to Sigma Antares before anyone knew we were gone!"

She gave a soft laugh "With the JAG Corps writing up our AWOL papers"

Smiling a bit sheepishly, he responded. "Well, yeah, that too. But, it would be so much fun!" He winked playfully at her as he finished speaking.

"hmmm indeed" She snuggled down in his arms. "I am sure it would be. But we are officers remember."

Sighing softly, he knew she was right. She always was! He took a few moments to build up the courage to ask the question he had wanted to ask her the first time their eyes met, four years earlier. "Phee, will you marry me?"

She sat up shocked. "Matt?" She asked softly.

He simply smiled at her, as he gazed into her beautiful silvery-blue eyes. "I love you, Phoenix Lalor. I've loved you since our eyes first met. I will always love you. If we got married, then HQ would have to keep us together, or, at the very least, in the same quadrant!"

Marriage, the very idea sent shudders through her. She was not even 21. "I..." She bit her lip "Matt, I love you, you know that." she said softly. She brushed her lips across his. "But I am not able to marry. When I turn 25, My father will not have any more say over my ability to marry."

Savoring the taste of her lips, Mattias sighed softly. "Okay," he said breathlessly. "We will circle back to this in the future, when we find each other again. And we WILL find each other again!"

"We will." She said softly.

Reaching up, he ran his fingers gently trough her hair, massaging her scalp slightly as he did so. "My heart and soul will always be yours, my Queen," he whispered as he lightly grazed her lips with his.

"Mine will always be yours" she whispered back with a smile.

After a few minutes of quiet bliss, Mattias quietly asked, "How long do we have, baby?"

"My Shuttle leaves tomorrow at 13h00" She said softly.

He slowly started to nuzzle her neck as she spoke to him. "That is still plenty of time, my love."

"Hmm very true" She whispered. "More than enough time."

"So," he whispered back. "What would you like to do in that time, my love?"

She had many ideas, and she wanted to spend as much time with him as possible. So she straightened up on his lap, looked him in the eye "I want to spend as much of the time with you, naked, clothed I do not care, as long as it is with you."

Gazing up into her beautiful face, Mattias grinned softly. "I love you, Phoenix Lalor." He leaned up in the chair and kissed her. The kiss, though tender and not rushed, spoke volumes for just how much he did love her.

When the kiss ended, and Mattias caught his breath, he said, "I have an idea. Let's go for a walk on our beach."

"Sounds lovely," she said with a smile.

"Great!" He replied. Then, when Phoenix hadn't moved, he said with wry grin, "Or, would you rather stay here?"

"I packed my bathing suit" she said with a smile as she slid from his lap.

"Well..." he began. "As we would be the only ones there, i won't tell if you have to go skinny dipping, if you don't tell on me?"

Her lips quirked into a sly smile. "Hmmm now there is a picture" She laughed and linked her arm through his.

Mattias's heart sang when he heard Phoenix laugh. As they left his quarters, he held her close to himself, savoring every moment he had left with her.

A few minutes later, they arrived at holodeck two. He quickly entered a few commands, then activated the program. The large double doors slid apart and he then led her inside.

The scene that greeted them was an exact copy of the night they walked on the beach on Pacifica. "As I said, my love, our beach."

Leaning against him She smiled. "Lovely." She said. "Lock the door?" she asked

"Computer," he said as he smiled hungrily. "Privacy settings, lock the door. No admittance to anyone until further notice."

Smiling she began to strip.

He paused, enjoying the view. He never grew tired of seeing Phoenix's perfect form. Slowly, he began to remove his own clothing. A few moments later, both were as naked as the day they were born. Holding out his hand to her, he said, "C'mere."

Phoenix took his hand as she stepped up to him. "Yes?" she asked with a warm smile.

After pulling Phoenix to him, Mattias placed his left hand on the small of her back, while with the right, he gently caressed the left side of her face, as he gazed down at her lovingly. "This will forever be only our beach. I will never take anyone else here. It will always be more important and much more special, to me, than any piece of land on Risa or any other location in all of creation. I have a copy of the program for you to take with you, if you'd like."

Phoenix nodded. "I would like that." And she smiled. "I will be able to activate it, and sit here thinking of you."

Nodding in return, he said, "And I you. I hope, one day, we can go back to that house, buy it, and truly make that strip of beach ours."

"Hmm sounds like a plan Love" Phoenix kissed him gently.

Quickly accepting her kiss, Mattias returned it with equal tenderness. He wanted to take things slow, drag out the pleasure they could, and would, give one another, relishing every moment, etching every second to his memories. For, if Fate decided to be cruel to them both, and never reunite them, he would ensure that he never forgot his true Queen.

She slid her arms around his neck and after a long kiss she drew back and smiled. "Tag you are it" she said gently pushing him and taking off along the sand.

Mattias was briefly taken aback by the sudden change then, smiling broadly, he began to give chase, laughing hungrily as he called out after her. "Here I come, princess!"

She laughed and picked up her pace as she headed into the waters edge.

Seeing her change direction and increase her speed, Mattias altered his angle of chase, to enter the water at roughly the same time as she did. Though she had learned a lot since that first day, he was still the stronger and faster swimmer. He would have her soon.

Phoenix paused in hip deep water and smiled back at him. "Am I too fast Lian?"

At that moment, Mattias dove under the surface, and using his training, seemed to vanish from sight.

Phoenix froze and looked around

For a few beats, the only sounds heard was the water gently lapping up against her skin and the sound of the surf softly breaking against the shore.

She tensed, where was he? She looked around more agitatedly

Suddenly, and from behind, Mattias breached the surface, like a mythical beast, and wrapped his arms around Phoenix, lifting her up out of the water some. "At last! The dreaded sea demon has claimed the sacrifice!"

She squealed and shifted in his arms. "Oh please.. no!" she laughed.

"It's no use, begging. The villagers will never hear your pleas!" He growled into her ear as he rubbed himself up behind her. "You are mine! Now and forever!"

She bit her lip to stop the moan escaping her lips. "Please, please " she mock begged "Let me go!"

"Never!" He hissed as he started to run his hands over the front of her body. "You are to be my new Queen of Atlantis! No longer shall you live up here on the surface. Instead, you will pleasure me, in my kingdom below, for all eternity!"

Phoenix smiled and moaned shivering in his grip. "oh..... ok..." she gasped

He moved his mouth to her neck and started to slowly nibble and suck on her neck and right ear lobe.

She let her head fall back as she moaned his name and wriggled in his arms. "Lian.. please"

He growled softly as she spoke to his in her native tongue. Slowly, he slid his right hand down to her center and slid his fingers inside, gently beginning to stimulate her.

Phoenix gasped and moaned in his ear. "Lian... Matt.... gods..." Her legs parted but they were barely touching the sand now so she had very little purchase in the water.

Using the weight-reducing nature of the water, Mattias easily held Phoenix against his chest as he continued to pleasure her. "Does that feel good, Baby?" He panted into her ear as his body reacted to her arousal.

"Yes... yes!" She groaned. "You want me Lian, you want to take me," she breathed in his ear. "Take me."

Moving his hands to rotate her in the water, Mattias turned Phoenix to face him. "I do want you!" Pulling her back to him, he spread her legs around his hips and carefully slid hie fully erect member inside of her center.

Phoenix moaned and clenched around him tightly. She let her head fall to his shoulder and she tightened her legs around his hips.

Grunting softly, Mattias began to slowly thrust in and out of Phoenix. "Oh..oh, fuck..." he moaned. "You are so tight!"

She nipped at his neck. "For you, always." She moved with him. the water lapped at their joined bodies, adding more movement to their actions.

Inhaling sharply when he felt her lips on his neck, Mattias upped his pace some, wanting to push her to her highest orgasmic level as he could.

She swirled her tongue over his skin, salt from the sea mixing with his taste and she moaned in his ear. "I love you, Lian."

He groaned with unbridled pleasure. In a voice heavy with desire, he replied. "Amin mela ile, Thiramen!"

"Amin mela ile" she whispered back as she moved with him.

For the next few hours, the couple made love to each other as if both their lives depended on it and as an effort to draw out as much of their remaining time left together.

Finally, they lay together, completely exhausted, on a large beach picnic cloth, limbs twisted around each other, almost as tightly as the famed Gordian Knot of ancient Earth.

Phoenix let herself drift in his arms as the water lapped around them. She could just stay here.. stay here and not leave... but she knew she would have to.

Mattias could feel Phoenix thinking. Holding her a little tighter, he said, his eyes still closed, "Don't think about the countdown. It'll only taint this beautiful time we have left. Just be with me and enjoy what we have left, my love. We will have plenty of time for tears later."

She nodded silently as she lay there. "Aestar" she whispered.

Mattias inhaled slightly. "Aestar, my love."

****

Hours later Phoenix was dressed in her uniform and standing beside the ramp to the shuttle that was taking all transfers to their new postings. She stood straight and silent, her face a mask that she used to wear at her father's court.

Mattias was there with her, wearing a crisp uniform. He wanted to look his best for her, without making a scene. While it was an open secret, across the whole ship, that they were an item, he always tried to keep their personal life, personal and private. "You'll call me when you get to where you're going, yes?" His voice cracked slightly as he spoke.

Phoenix nodded. "Yes I will," she said softly. "Promise."

Standing close to her, Mattias subtly reached out and took hold of her hand. He gave it a squeeze. "I put something in your bag while you were getting dressed. Promise me that you will wait to open it until you get to you new ship?"

She nodded and clenched her teeth together to stop her chin from wobbling. "I won't open it until then," she got out and then she glanced up at him. "Thank you, Captain."

Looking down into her mesmerizing silver-blue eyes, Mattias had the urge to just take her up into his arms and run away with her. Unfortunately, the call went out for all passengers to board the outgoing shuttle.

"I will always love you!" He whispered through clenched teeth, his eyes threatening to burst with tears.

"Amin mela lle Thiramen." She whispered back and quickly brushed her lips over his one last time as she picked up her piece of hand luggage and turned to the shuttle. She straightened her shoulders and lifted her chin and walked to the ramp.

Mattias inhaled deeply when he felt Phoenix's lips upon his own that last time. It's sweetness would carry him through many dark nights ahead. As he watched her walk away, he snapped to attention, and stayed there, unmoving, until after her shuttle lifted off the deck and exited the shuttlebay. He then relaxed slightly. The love of his life had just left, he felt hollow inside, as if a part of him had been ripped away.

Because it had been.

After a few more beats, he left the shuttlebay and made his way back into his office. He knew he would mourn the loss but, he had work that needed to be done. Thankfully, his Marines knew of the heartbreak he was feeling, so tgey kept their interruptions to a minimum for the rest of the day.

===On The Shuttle===

Phoenix sat in her seat, her head back against the bulkhead, eyes closed against the rest of the shuttle. She didn't want to think or feel, she just wanted the silence around her. Because if she thought, then she felt and then she would cry again. And she hated crying in public.

===USS Hydra - 2 days later===

Phoenix entered her new quarters and sighed. It was okay she guessed. Moving she sat on the bed and opened her duffle bag. And pulled out the package Mattias had given her. Smiling as her eyes misted with tears she held the small dagger he had given her with their birth stones, a letter, had written which she knew the contents without even reading it, and a small pouch.. sand.. Pacifica. She pressed them to her chest and fell back on the bed, thinking of the man she had left.

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Aestar - Together