Bad memories

Posted on Mon Oct 16th, 2023 @ 11:19pm by Lieutenant Commander Alicia Kelea-Salik

Mission: Season 6: Episode 4: Memory Lane
Location: Quarters
Timeline: 3/01/2398
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Alicia stood in the shower stifling a yawn as she went through her usual early morning routine, the night hadn’t been an easy one. She hadn’t had nightmares about losing her previous love Kal, and the loss of their baby, in a long time, she wasn’t sure why it had started happening now.

The news had hit like a freight train, she had practically stumbled to the nearby seat to sit down. The universe seemed to disappear into the background as the shock of the news had hit home, Kal wouldn’t be returning. He was gone and there was nothing she could do to bring him back.

It had been so difficult, but difficult was about to get horrific as the shock had the effect of setting her into early labour from which her child would not emerge alive. Both lost in such a short space of time.

The scene changed to back at home, it had seemed so clear, so easy to just take a sharp object to her wrist. Watching the blood flow she paused, she couldn’t do it, she couldn’t finish the job.

The scene changed again only this time it wasn’t Kal, before her was Savar and her children. She reached out for them, trying to reach them but every time she tried they got further and further away. She started to run, trying to reach them, but as she ran so they got further away from her. She watched as they disappeared into the distance, not able to reach them, leaving her alone, in pain and afraid.

She screamed, called out their names, but no one came. Darkness folded in around her and voices cried out to her taunting her to finish what she’d started. Telling her she was alone, that it would happen, that her family would leave her and she’d be alone again.

She’d awoken covered in perspiration with tears streaming down her cheeks, a note from Savar said he’d had to leave early and would see her later. Jumping out of bed she’d headed to the children’s rooms breathing a sigh of relief to see them there. Leaving them to sleep for a little longer she’d headed for a shower.

Stepping out she dried herself off, getting her daily routine underway she yawned as she made breakfast for the kids, but couldn’t help but wonder why Savar had left so early. If he was awake early he usually went to meditate in the living room, it was part of his routine to meditate one end of the day or the other. No doubt he’d explain later when he returned.

Alicia stood looking at where she’d had the scar removed from her wrist, a small red mark had appeared which had never happened before. Maybe in her nightmare state she’d scratched herself no doubt it would disappear. She would make a point of talking to Savar later, to tell him all about her nightmare, he always made her feel better. She had no doubt he would this time too.

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