Shame Immeasurable

Posted on Sun Jun 27th, 2021 @ 5:06am by Commodore Phoenix Lalor-Richardson & Lieutenant Clara Lawson & Commander Arrianna Salannis an Vantar & Lieutenant Commander Malakai Starr [Taylor] & Sasha Stone [Whavi] & 1st Lieutenant Joshua Young [Taylor] & Lieutenant Commander Kara Starr {Kelea-Salik} & Captain Mattias Richardson [Reece]

Mission: Darkness Rising - A Phoenix Lalor Sub Plot
Location: Medical Bay, Lily Kaas Vessel
Timeline: MD13, After The Infiltration turned Oh Crap!
3113 words - 6.2 OF Standard Post Measure

Malakai walked beside the woman they had purchased from the auction. He was silent as they entered the medbay. He had briefly looked at the case of whatever it was her hands were secured in. They needed to remove the case without removing her fingers or hands. For now, the former slave would have to rely on others to feed her.

After She was taken aboard, she began to feel her strongly now She didn't want it. She walked with her new owners to the ships medical bay, but she still felt the trace of her presence through the restraining collar. She was hoping she would be too ashamed of her, so she could sell her to someone else. But she didn't speak... unless she was spoken to... But soon, the woman her past self once held in great regard, would see her as a naked, slut with a collar around her neck, and utter failuer that couldn't even keep herself from being enslave, that couldn't even protect her Josie.

This was worse than losing who she was, and losing the ability to love.. losing everything. She had to stand before her.... and show her how much of a complete failure she was. She walked still with the crew who was holding her chain, her waist swayed, like a perfect slave. Hoping Phoenix would sell her rather than look at her. Worse, she could keep her as her own plaything. She forced Arrianna down into her mind again. displaying her body. Hoping that she would forsake her.

She suddenly turned her head away from the eyes on her in the room. She couldn't look. Couldn't look.

"Kill..... Me..." She mouthed to the people in the room.

Malakai looked blankly at her for a moment before it dawned on him what she said. "Kill you? Absolutely not your free now. Just give us time to work out how to free your hands."

"KILL ME!!!!!" She screamed.... Trying to hold back tears. "Kill me before she looks at me..... I am a slave... You should not have reminded me of my old life... That's gone now. I can't love... I can't feel.. I have no free will. I can only do what my master commands." Flossie and Arri were having a match for control.

'You miserable whore. I've finally done it. I've had my revenge on you.' The Viceroy noted. "Look at you now. How I used your anger to get you to ruin your career. How I took control and made Bishop torture you, How I fanned your frustrations with Carrington. You are a miserable slut." As soon as the Collar was taken off, every telepath could hear the Viceroy's taunting.

'Show some skin, Flossie. Dance for your new owner. Who happens to be no one else but the woman you admired the most... Oh yes... did she buy slaves? Interesting.'

"KILL ME NOW!!!!" She began sobbing.

Mattias quickly reached over and pressed a hypo filled with sedative into Arrianna's neck. He was so angry seeing this poor woman in such a state. "I say we go back there and level the whole fucking block!" His voice was a dangerous growl.

The moment Arrianna’s collar had come off Kara cradled her head as she got the full whack of what Arrianna was projecting. The only relief was when the sedative kicked in. “She’s tormented...” She massaged her temples as she looked at the others. “They’ve put her through hell and beyond, the pain...” she shook her head as she looked at Arri. “Is off the scale!”

Malakai looked at the women Kara was cradling and then to Mattias and nodded, "I agree, we don't leave two pieces of anything together."

Mattias nodded as he turned to head out the hatch. Looking back to Kara, he said. "Stay safe, Little Girl. I love you. Always." He then looked at Phoenix. He could see the look of fear of losing him in her eyes. Moving to her, he pulled her into his arms, careful not to hurt her with the enhanced strength if the suit. "I'll be back, my love." He then kissed her.

"better be" she muttered. "IF you can get Josie out, do so."

Mattias looked in his lover's eyes and nodded. He then activated a hidden control and the helmet closed and sealed. It was time to to work.

Malakai was more subdued he moved to Kara and kissed her tenderly. "Don't worry we'll be fine." He assured her. "You help her." He nodded at Arri, "She's going to need it." Then he followed Mattias out.

Kara looked at Lily before taking to her heels and following the men. “Wait! You can’t just go back there! You’ll get yourselves killed!!”

Mattias paused and turned. "Kara, remember how I said I'd always protect you? This is how I do that. You're a healer. And your great at it. I kill people. And I am very good at it."

“Just promise me you’ll both come back unharmed” Kara looked between both the men she loved. “I don’t plan on losing either of you!”

Phoenix had been in a state of shock, she had, had to leave a crew member behind before, but this this was worse. Her violet eyes swum with unshed tears.

Kara heard a quiet voice coming from Arri as she was within her mind. "Josie. Don't don't walk away. Don't be a slave. I know I failed you. Give me a chance to save you. Please don't give in. I love you... No stop!! Get your hands off her. No, Stop Josie, I love you, Don't be his slave!!"

"Arri" Phoenix said as she waved the others out leaving Kara and herself alone with the woman. "Oh by the gods Arri."

Making her way back to Arrianna, Kara set about caring for her patient. She was surprised she had such a high tolerance to the dose of sedative Mattias had given her. “You’re safe here, you have nothing to fear from us.”

"I have lost everything to them..." Arri noted. "My pride, my honor, my dignity. He has the love of my life... I've failed her completely. Then they tortured me, hours and hours... until I lost my free will and became what they wanted... There's someone here... she should not see me like this.. I've failed her the worst of all." She sobbed. "I've lost her..." Arri noted. "They took away the love of my life." She bowed her head. "She's now a plaything for him... How do I tell my Captain how much I've failed?!? Oh Josie my love... I'm sorry... I'm sorry I didn't protect you harder. But if I have to avenge you, my love. I will be utterly without mercy to Kyle Cragen."

Kara had a feeling she knew who the someone amongst them was Arri had mentioned. “Shhh just rest... you’ve been through so much already, we’ll get Josie back, one way or another we’ll get her.” Kara looked at Lily

Phoenix/Lily stepped up to the bed, and grabbed Arri's hand. "Arrianna! Arrianna Salannis an Vantar! You snap out of this right now and tell me how in the gods this happened! Why were you there? Why aren't you on the Elysium!"
Phoenix needed answers.

"Yasmine Carrington." She noted. "She had no respect for us. Came on board with Lovejoy saying you were a traitor., and you were tried and convicted, and sent to some prison somewhere. Every single time she mocked you. It enraged me. We deserved better. So I stood up to her, and got put on psychological leave. I told her we deserved respect. Morale is catastrophically low." Arri noted. "I was sent on vacation with Josie because of stress I exploded. Forgive me... no... don't. I've failed you so many times. And I've failed you again."

"Poor pathetic fool." Phoenix would have heard the presence in Arris mind.

Phoenix didn't even think, she reacted and her hand cracked across Arri's face. "SNAP OUT OF IT COMMANDER!" she yelled. "We do not have time for you to allow that psychotic bitch to command you any longer. You have not failed me yet so get your sorry arse out of that state of mind!"

Kara quickly stepped up. “Phoenix!! That’s quite enough!” She moved to stand between Arri and Phoenix. “Given other circumstances that might work but not this time. She’s been through enough, without you trying to beat it out of her.”

"You mean you're not ashamed of what they made me into? Phoenix? I tried. I tried to take the torture like you did.." Arri noted..

"never Arri!" She replied over Kara's shoulder

"Get out of my mind."

'You belong to your master, Flossie!!" The Viceroy noted. "You are a slave."

"I AM ARRIANNA SALANNIS AN VANTAR.. and I will not let your anger and hatred consume me any more. It is because of you my emotional discipline degrated. I am purging you completely." Kara would notice something... Strange happening in her mind. It was like Arri was attacking a piece of herself in her mind itself. Destroying it.

"AHHGH!!! You NEED ME.. I made sure you survived.."

"No... You didn't." Arri suddenly screamed at the top of her lungs. It was piercingly painful for her to purge a part of her psyche. What remained was...

A Calm Sea...

Kara looked concernedly at Phoenix.

"Arri..." Lily/Phoenix asked carefully.

"I am.." Arri stated in an abnormally calm voice. ".... doing a little better without her in my mind... For the first time in a long time. I think I've recovered some of my reason, other than intense worry over Josephine."

With kara beside her, Lily stepped up to Arri's bedside. "Sorry about the slap there." She said honestly. "What's going on Arri, why were you in that place?"

"The situation began back at Earth." Arri noted. "A Captain Yasmine Carrington and Commander Garrett Lovejoy informed us that Command of the Elysium had been transferred, to Captain Carrington as CO and Commander Lovejoy as Executive Officer." Her calm voice had returned somewhat. "They then told us you had been arrested for treason, tried in a location we were not aware of, and then imprisoned; also in a location we were not aware of. No appeals, no representation, no writ of Habeus Corpus." Arri explained. "She then told the crew the same story. Emphasizing the word 'Traitor.'

"Oh brilliant, that's just great" Muttered Phoenix as she took out the contacts that made her eyes violet.

"I was demoted from Second officer, Commander Taylor was reassigned as Chief Diplomatic Officer, and Aurelia exploded at Carrington. She was promptly 'brigged'." Arri noted. "Captain Carrington's command is destabilizing crew morale. Officers and Crew who don't measure up to her standards are demoted almost three to four ranks of grade, mostly to Ensign and reassigned. Junior Officers are then promoted to positions they are not suitible for." Arri mentioned. "It was only later that I learned from her service history that she was intended to command the USS Elysium after Admiral Shar had disappeared, but the Elysium went to another Commander you may be familiar with. Much to the dismay of many in Starfleet who had their careers as a priority." Arri noted. "Captain, I would have preferred even being told, 'Captain Phoenix Lalor was on a classified assignment. But instead that was not the case.' I confronted Carrington and questioned her methods. I quickly was targeted and ended up on her 'BUPERS' list, she calls it the bump and replace list. That is the list she uses to destroy the careers of our crew." Arri mentioned. "I lost my emotional control at her. I couldn't abide her. When I tried to press the moral issue, I was shot down by Lovejoy." Arri mentioned. "The Viceroy then manipulated my emotions, and I ended up getting put on Psychological Leave. That's when we got enslaved." Arri mentioned. "Captain... Understand.. They hurt me... Hurt me badly. Tortured me... I gave in.. just so the pain would stop. Captain. The love of my life is a slave, I must go back for her."

"oh by the gods Yasmine, I swear you and I are gonna go around" Phoenix said irately. "That woman takes a role to far! Should have been a fucking actress!" She spun around. "As for Josie, we will try, right now you need to rest and heal. Kara here is a wonderful doctor on par with our friendly neighbourhood Gorn. Once she heals you, you will rest and do as she says."

"Captain... Do you trust this crew of yours?" Arri asked clearly.

"Yes I trust them." Came the reply. "And Kara is one of my closest friends here."

"if you trust this crew, then I shall trust this crew too, as I trust you as my Captain." Arri smiled warmly. For the first time in a while. "However, I only ask that I be permitted to aid you when I am fit for duty. It does not matter to me what mission you may or may not be on. What I do care for... You have a son and a daughter back at home who should grow up with their mother. I have a crew that's suffering under Carrington's abuses, and I'm frantically worried about Josie. I understand you had your reasons that you did not take us on this mission, but those are not important to me. I cannot go back now. I know too much about your mission that cannot be reveled at this time." Arri noted. "I'll remain with Kara for the time being. She'll need to know a few things about my unique physiology."

"Ok. i need to go get the others settled and the other slaves transported to the nearest FED starbase." Lily pressed a hand to Kara's shoulder. "Thanks Kara"

“Don’t worry I’ll look after her” Kara smiled at Phoenix then looked at Arrianna.

"Kara..." Arrianna noted. "My name is Commander Arrianna Salannis an Vantar. It is agreeable to meet you. Understand. What you felt was called Yn'Tar Vas.. It transilates into mindpurge."

“A mindpurge?” Kara looked at Arrianna curiously.

"It is an very old mental art dating back to the old Warlord Campaigns. We developed Yn'Tar Vas as a treatment against the Mindphage. Telepathic weapons of mass destruction. You will need to conduct several neural regeneration procedures. I will provide the means to do that." Arri noted. You will need a neural regenerator set to a specific neural stimulation. Otherwise my mind will not restore itself properly. You can make this out of a modified cortical stimulator. I will instruct you how to configure it, as my hands are a little... Tied up." The Calm woman noted. She was not the traumatized woman from before... somewhat. "Work quickly. My brain will be damaged soon if I don't get this."

Kara nodded and quickly dashed off to get what Arrianna needed. She was back moments later with a neural regenerator and a cortical stimulator. “Okay I’ve got them, what do we need to do?”

"Set the Alpha wave emtter to .45. Beta waves to 22.21. Gamma to 112." Arri mentioned. "For the second emitter. Alpha .12 Beta 112. Gamma to .2 Put the first one on my forehead and activate it for eight hours. Put the second one on your forehead for the same amount of time."

“On mine?” Kara looked at Arrianna briefly as she set the emitters to the specification Arrianna had given her.

"Yn'tar Vaas takes a toll on even non-Alindari Telepaths. We developed it out of desperation to remove very damaging telepathic influences from a mind. A cure of last resort. Think of it as a telepathic lobotomy, and it always hurts. That is a precaution in case my purge transitioned into your mind." Arri pointed out. "I did not seek to hurt you, Kara. But I was out of options. The divergent personality in my mind was... manipulative... insidious... I was not myself, and she wanted me to sell myself as a slave. If I kept her, she would have manipulated me into possibly crawling back to Kyle Cragen... And becoming Flossie again."

Kara’s eyes widened. “So... how do I know if what you did affected me?” She looked very worried. “It’s not just me in this body Arrianna, I’m pregnant!”

"The second emitter is configured to Betazoids. Us Alindari are familiar with Betazoid telepathy. We have wonderful conversation with them. While I kept most of the feedback to myself, another emitter placed on your torso could provide the regenerative properties to your child's brain as well." Arri showed concern for her child. "It was not my intent to harm anyone. But I couldn't let her enslave me again." She sighed. "Flossie.... Enjoyed being a whore... She took to being a Sex Slave with the same dedication my people take to our academic studies. If I remained as her, I would have published doctoral thesis on Seduction and Sexual Intercourse. I came up with the stripdancing on my own, refined it while I was still a slave."

Kara nodded as she listened. “I know you didn’t mean us any harm, you’ve been through a lot. These are ready” she placed the monitors on both Arri and herself hoping that all would be well. “So do I need to be lying down for this?”

"Not really." Arri noted. "You can adhere it and go about your duties. I am going to put myself into a healing trance to boost the effect. One more thing; Get these things off my hands, they are quite... Uncomfortable."

Kara offered a smile. “I’ll do my upmost to get them off you as soon as possible” she paused. “Are there any warning signs I should look for if there’s a problem with either of us? I know very little about this method of healing the mind.”

"The minds of Alindari and Betazoids are quite resiliant..." Arri mentioned. "Oh and there may be scars on my body from Klingon Pain Sticks.. Leave them." Arri noted. "I never want to forget that there's more slaves out there. When you've been a slave... you'll never take freedom for granted again."

Kara nodded understandingly. “I completely understand. I err...” She paused for a moment. “I was raped three years ago, I chose to keep my scars too. A reminder to myself to be more careful in the future.” She shrugged her shoulders. “Okay everything is ready to begin the eight hour repair of our minds.”